just this

i remember when i started crying in my sofa, when I felt like i'm a terrible person, i felt like it was all my fault, I felt so insecure, I started biting and scratching my body, I felt the world falling apart underneath me, I felt like I had nothing, I started thinking about all our messages, our talks, our hugs, our kisses, our cumplicity, our smiles, our looks.... I started thinking all about I lost in that moment, and when I thought  about this I cryed more and more. And in todays, i still miss you, but not in the same way, I miss our friendship and our talks, I miss talking to you for hours, and especially I miss the time we smile for eachother without thinking about the bad things that happened. Now I can say that I have a very good person with me, I know he really loves me, believe me, he treats me so fine, he cares about me, he remembers me all the time, I'm always in his mind, I know that.
He means the world to me, he makes me really happy,more than you did, sorry.
But I know, that you know, that I still care and think about you, but do you think that  I still love you? it's not true. I have a big affection for you, because you marked my life, and you have broked my heart, but it doesn't hurt anymore.
 Now I feel safe, happy, i'm in love with him, and finally I'm not in love with you anymore. But you can be happy because I don't think you were a mistake, I'm not sorry for had stayed with you those times. It was a great experience, and I was happy with you, this is true too.
I want that you be happy, I want that we start talking again like friends, and especially I want to forget that bad things I still remember, all the times that I see you.